Friday, April 26Royal Holloway's offical student publication, est. 1986

Creative Writing

I let one go to catch another, but that one left too.
Creative Writing

I let one go to catch another, but that one left too.

I’ve searched for too long To find someone like you But when I finally find you You scamper away I’ve only just put myself back together from that last Shattering. My heart, Left in a thousand pieces. And now, Again. A thousand and one. And so the number grows. When will it get smaller? Please will someone put me back together? Photo by Toa Heftiba on Unsplash
I just wanted to love You
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I just wanted to love You

To my friend, Please don’t be angry with me. I tried my best to love, But I am still too broken to work I wanted nothing more Than to be all yours and yours only To stand next to you  And for you to call me yours, but I don’t belong to myself And so how can I be yours? I don’t want to leave  You hanging in the blue unknown So I had to say goodbye And try and fix myself with my Broken tools. Maybe You had the remedy that would Fix me.  Don’t hate me, I just wanted to love You. Photo by Towfiqu barbhuiya on Unsplash
Hold me / An Ode to the Boy I loved
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Hold me / An Ode to the Boy I loved

How perfect you were For me to be yours All accept your Love for me. For there was none. None that I could see, In your glistening brown eyes Darker than the oak trees. Your beautiful soft hair, So boringly brown. Yet, utterly perfect. I may not be yours But I certainly was For that second that you Made me feel special, Made me feel wanted. Photo by takwa abdo on Unsplash
Heroine
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Heroine

I tie the band and Pick up the needle. It’s cold metal digs deep Into my flesh, The icy poison seeps Into my bones. Filling me with false hope, False love. But I can’t take the band off For you wrapped it too tight  Around my heart, And left with the needle Still digging into me. The pain growing greater  Without you to take it out. Love was never supposed to hurt this much. Photo by Mykenzie Johnson on Unsplash
From my window
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From my window

From my window I stand and stare at the garden over the fence. All the eye can see is a crisp layer of fresh grass. The gardener comes in every Tuesday to mow the lawn and take care of the flowers. A cluster of lilies standing proud. Orchids with their intoxicating scent, bound to put you in a frenzy. Roses tainted in blood or as white as the clouds above. Even the sun stares in awe, hiding behind the apple tree, scared its scorching heat will ruin their beauty. Each branch grows heavy with the ripe fruit. Not one is allowed to fall, or they would land in the crystal-clear water.  An old man in overalls is hunched over the opulent pool to collect the stray leaves that did fall in. It’s not their fault. The wind last night was fierce, pulling them off branches and downing them in chlo...
Chest Pains
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Chest Pains

You bring me Hope You bring me Joy But you bring me Pain. A Pain so great It’s like an anvil An immovable object Taking its retirement On my chest You can’t see It But I can definitely feel It Weighing down on me It’s so easy for You To take off But impossible For me to Lift It My breath feels heavier The weight pushing  Down on my air But You breath so easy Naïve to the Pain My Pain that You cause Lift It Please. Photo by Akshar Dave🌻 on Unsplash
21 candles
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21 candles

i wanted to call in sick that night because i am sentimental still  birthdays carry the ghost of the child i was & the ways my parents loved me like  opening chords & yolks overeasy maple haloing angel cake the time it takes to wrap a bike in patterned p...
A Future Nearby
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A Future Nearby

We met in a riot.  We stood at the centre of the universe bathed in colours that sang as we sang and fought as we fought.  We were proud and wild and angry, at such a young age We had so much to feel  And we felt so much.  I noticed your fierceness.  How your pink hair was held up by the honey sun  Your green eyes glared at a world which closed its eyes when we got hurt for  Being. We marched for the boy in hospital and for the boy who sat beside him. You brandished your sign to the sky and to God and it asked  ‘how can you hate love?’  It was a carnival of pain and beauty.  We held hands in the crowd like children Because we were children really.  At twenty we had just introduced ourselves...
Touch and go
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Touch and go

A sunset is ever-changing, Every minute of it revealing a new face, a new colour, a new sight. Oranges, pinks, and reds colour the sky, Merging to create a new painting every evening. Similarly, how sunsets are constantly altering, So are the people in our life. Every stage of our life contains different people compared with the last, It’s hard to understand that everyone isn’t going to stay. People are always passing by. But that’s okay, Because often through these short encounters with people we learn more about ourselves and we learn new lessons. And perhaps that is their only purpose in our life, The sun sets. And when the sun sets, The stars appear. They are now the light, the colours, and the new sight, But the thing is with stars is t...
Isolation
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Isolation

We watch our friends find love. In a field or classroom, Whilst we sit in our chairs  And watch the happiness of others. We watch our parents laugh. At the dinner table, Whilst we stare at our plate Wanting the affection of another. We watch strangers embrace. In the dim lit street, Whilst we hide in our rooms Isolating from the danger of others. We watch our siblings happy. With their normality, Whilst we stare in the mirror Wondering what is wrong with us. Photo by Sasha Freemind on Unsplash