in sooth

in sooth, i know not why i am so sad

i miss u in cerulean and orange

emotional support jumper in full force

one not to be reckoned with but

dear god my intrusive thoughts are

trying it’s not very late but i’ve got

a tired ache brain ache self hate

my favourite animal is you i am

consumed with insatiability and

itchy ankles when i open my mouth

songbirds fly out which is actually

very inconvenient my mouth is

full of feathers and bird shit now

damn that analogy i’m learning 

to exist soundly love vulnerably

instead burn incense until the

smoke makes it smell safe again

i’m too afraid to leave the house

most days anxious twitch anxious

twitch ghost therapist dear god

i feel pathetic in my bedroom

tonight

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